Childhood Christmas
memories make us feel nostalgic this time of year. My childhood memory was
traumatic and triumphant at the same time. I didn't really appreciate its value
until later in life. It proves to me that God wastes nothing in our lives if we
allow Him to work His will in us.
A Christmas Tree Lesson
I stood on the shore of Gull Pond watching the last
hurrah of summer. The trees in this picturesque place were bathed in the
glorious fall colors of red, orange, and gold. A perfect mirror image reflected
in the sparkling waters. My eyes fixated on a beautiful sugar maple and a tear
trickled down my cheek. It occurred to me that this might be my last time to
see this beautiful place. One by one I watched the red leaves float on the
autumn breeze and skim the surface of the water. My life was ebbing away just
like the life in that tree.
I had survived a rough year, with numerous
hospitalizations and near death experiences and there were more challenges to
overcome. I had come to my family’s camp in the mountains for a time of
recuperation. Soon I would be added to the national organ transplant waiting list.
There was no guarantee I would receive a liver transplant in time to save my
life. I wanted to be optimistic about my chances, but I was having a pity
party. My prayer was short and to the point, “God show me your will and your
plan for what remains of my life.”
Immediately my mind flashed back forty years. I stood in
our living room looking at our Christmas tree. Like any ten-year old child, I
awaited Christmas with great anticipation. All my hopes and dreams were wrapped
and ready under the tree, but the tree itself was unwrapped and almost
naked.
The bitter cold winds and lake effect snows had blasted
my town on the shores of Lake Ontario. It was an unusually cold winter and the
old oil furnace in our upstairs apartment worked overtime. My mother’s asthma
and my dry skin suffered that year and the Christmas tree didn't like it
either. My bedroom was next to the living room and at night I could hear the
steady drip, drip of needles falling from our newly decorated tree. By
Christmas morning dead needles and shattered ornaments covered the
presents.
I was devastated since our family tradition was for the
tree to stay decorated and on display until well after New Year. Our naked tree
just wouldn't do since I couldn't show off my tree and gifts to my friends. I
carried on so that my father agreed to go look for a new tree. He drove the old
car around town until we saw several trees at a roadside stand. A farmer saw us
coming and probably wondered about folks out looking for a Christmas tree on
Christmas morning. It was my job to explain why we were there and only had five
dollars to spend. “No charge!” the farmer said as he loaded the tree into the
trunk of the car. My father sputtered and fumed as he dragged the tree up the
stairs and mounted it to the tree stand. I didn’t dare complain as I swept up
piles of dead needles, strung the lights, and hung the unbroken ornaments on
the tree.
A squawking flock of geese diving into Gull Pond brought
me back to reality. I suddenly realized that like that tree so long ago; I too
was on life support. Just as my earthy Father had saved my Christmas by helping
find a new tree, I believed that my heavenly Father would spare my life long
enough to get a new liver. I left the peaceful setting of Gull Pond with
renewed hope and a confident faith in God’s provision.
Two years later when the springtime trees were in full
bloom, I received my donor liver and a second chance at life.
My memoir: Born three Times—A New Life, A New Liver, A
New Love tells this story and many others from my life. You can purchase my
book from Amazon.com in either paperback or e-book format. It is an
inspirational Christmas gift for anyone on your list.
So glad you did get another chance at life and that I have had the experience of knowing you and hearing your stories both in person and in your wonderful book. Merry Christmas Frieda and may you have many many more.
ReplyDeleteHad a cry today reading this. It brought back lots of memories to Middle Sis & also I praise & thank Our Lord for giving you added years.
ReplyDeleteSo very precious, Frieda. I love the analogies... the feelings you share and certainly the way it really was! Isn't God good! Love from Carleen and Ken
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